Category Archives: analysis

Re-Learning How to Fuck

Let me tell you one thing. Re-learning to fuck is actu­ally quite a bit like rid­ing your bike for the first time in over fif­teen years. Your body remem­bers the motions, but doesn’t quite remem­ber the exe­cu­tion of these motions. It takes time to relearn how to move your legs, how to hold your bal­ance, [...]
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The Sexless Sex Blogger

I have a con­fes­sion to make. I haven’t had sex in almost a month. It’s been over three weeks since I had an orgasm, three weeks since I thought about test­ing out sex toys, three weeks since I thought about my hus­band, or any­one else in a sex­ual way. It’s an extremely frus­trat­ing feel­ing, this whole not-really-feeling-much-of-anything [...]
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That time of the month…

Ear­lier this week­end, I men­tioned on twit­ter that I don’t have sex dur­ing my period. I was rather sur­prised by how many responses it elicited. After all, among most women, I would imag­ine that it’s prob­a­bly the norm. But in the kinky/pro-sex com­mu­nity, I seem to be the excep­tion. I had a lot of peo­ple [...]
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Father figures.

Father’s Day, like Mother’s Day, is  a day that I don’t usu­ally cel­e­brate. While I do have both a mother and father, nei­ther is a big part of my life. I haven’t heard from my mother in over a year, and only recently found out that she was alive and well liv­ing in Lon­don. My [...]
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Aging Gracefully

I found my first white hair at the age of 18. It was my first year away at col­lege and after three years of board­ing school, I felt pretty worldly and ready to take what­ever the world threw at me. But when I found that first white hair, and it was just the one, I [...]
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Not just a shoe whore, Not anymore

When I was in high school, my room­mate and I thought we were quite the fash­ion mavens. Our room was filled with copies of Vogue and W, and we dis­cussed the lat­est run­way offer­ings from Gal­liano and Lager­field like we were Andre Leon Tal­ley him­self. I think this is where my life­long love affair with [...]
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The Road Not Taken.

Always Aroused Girl’s lat­est blog­post has got­ten me think­ing about the choices I made that brought me to this place, and those other paths not taken. My past…is com­pli­cated. I made poor deci­sions that I lived to regret, and other deci­sions were made for me with­out my con­sent. But for bet­ter or for worse, those [...]
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Basic necessity.

The first few days, I’m okay. The hours fly by as I occupy myself with other things. I try to keep myself busy — I tell myself that I can make it. What’s a few days, five days, a week? I’ve gone longer with­out before. Then time starts to slow. The min­utes slow to a [...]
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State of the Waist.

I haven’t talked too much about my efforts to shape up, live healthy, and lose weight since the begin­ning of the year. Though it’s some­thing that affects the way I live my life every day, I wasn’t sure that it would be appro­pri­ate blog fod­der. That being said, I’m going to talk about because I’m [...]
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Disconnect

Between every­thing that’s been going on at home, and all the drama on the inter­nets, I’ve been feel­ing strangely dis­con­nected from it all. Petty squab­bling and stu­pid drama doesn’t seem nearly so impor­tant when you look at the big­ger picture. My dar­ling D still isn’t feel­ing well — he found out that he has a kid­ney [...]
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